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After reading the entirety of Rivecca’s story, I returned to its beginning to recall just how the escapade began. There is a lot of change that happens within this story, without a whole lot of physical changing and movement involved. The change is truly denoted in the way that the main character, Isabel, thinks of herself. Initially in the first two paragraphs I thought that I was reading about a girl who was indeed violated but had internalized it and was trying to brush it off as less serious. As I continued into the story I found that the landlord was not out of the ordinary but rather Isabel was hyper aware and over-exaggerated in her depictions of the landlord. Isabel, in her efforts to not appear offensive, seems naive and innocent, but with that facade in play she seems to lose touch with her own voice. Isabel continually questions herself, not in a productive way, but ratherĀ  tweaking her natural self (like the landlord said, she’s a chameleon) so that she can make the impression she wants to make. Unfortunately for Isabel, this makes her seem disconnected and as the landlord first recognized, “fragile.” Were that her true state of being, it would be fine, but she is a lot more resourceful and protective than that. In reality, Isabel is able to recognize the good in the landlord, and she is intelligent enough to know he’s right. Here is when she begins to feel uneasy, not because his actions makes her uneasy, but because suddenly she is aware of how uncomfortable she is with someone knowing the truth about her, as though she is inherently a letdown and that truth must be kept a secret. Isabel goes through great lengths to protect herself, but in the end she was scared not for her life, but scared by herself- what she had caused. This was the first time she had been caught doing what she had always done, and has not gotten away with it. Sadly, it seems that Isabel does not grow by the end of this story.

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